It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.

It's happening.

Something I didn't want to happen. Not now. I don't think there would ever be a good time for this to happen. But it is. And it's all happening next week. I can't do this. It's too scary to do. I'm not alone, i have support but right now it doesn't feel like it's enough.

I want to just crawl under a rock and hide there until it goes away. Until the feeling of guilt goes away. But it never will and I know it.
Now for tonight, to put on a happy face and pretend that everything is good, and if it gets brought up to ignore it. Because this IS something I can hide and I will. I just want it all to be over!