If you desire many things, many things will seem few.

Soo tomorrow is Christmas day.
I'm up in Papamoa with Michael and his family. On the 27th we'll be heading down to Wanginui to go see more family.

Yesterday was our 1 year and I'm not completely pleased with what happened because family got in the way. But I was promised today will be better.

So far all I've done today is get up and have a shower. BBBOOORRRIIINNNGGG!
But today is meant to be fish and chips on the beach with a walk along the beach afterwards.
Wonder if it will happen?

I'm a Pregasauraus...mess with me and you'll be extinct.

I've been craving chicken so badly!

It sucks though cause it has to be cooked right before I can eat it

I want to have the right stuff to do baking so I can make M&M muffins just like this one.

Chocolate craving to the extreme


The stink thing about this photo is that I would drink the "family" sized one.
Its so expensive though so its pretty much out of the question :-(

And last but not least, bacon!!! At one stage I've managed to get through a whole kg of bacon before it satisfied my craving.

You cannot hate other people without hating yourself

HAHAHAHAHA Oh god you make me laugh.
No one does like you, well done. And excuse me "liar"? Saying I lied to you because I hate you? Um you really need to learn to read. It was because I didn't want anyone else to know until it was time.

Or are you just shitty that everyone knew but you because I wasn't sure if you would be one of those " OH MY GOD GUESS WHAT, DID YOU HEAR?" girls. And if you told before I was ready I would never forgive you, I would never forgive anyone if they told before I was ready.
It's called trust and by the way you bitch about whatever that chicks name is, I couldn't trust you with something this big.

Oh and heads up, at fireworks, no one was looking for your on again off again boyfriend because honestly we just couldn't be F***ed.

So Goodbye, I'm so glad school is over and its nice to know that you don't care about my news. I guess if we ever see each other in the street we'll be better as strangers

MMMMMMMMOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

17 DAYS!!!!!!!!!

It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.

It's happening.

Something I didn't want to happen. Not now. I don't think there would ever be a good time for this to happen. But it is. And it's all happening next week. I can't do this. It's too scary to do. I'm not alone, i have support but right now it doesn't feel like it's enough.

I want to just crawl under a rock and hide there until it goes away. Until the feeling of guilt goes away. But it never will and I know it.
Now for tonight, to put on a happy face and pretend that everything is good, and if it gets brought up to ignore it. Because this IS something I can hide and I will. I just want it all to be over!