“There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.”

I went to a Roller skating competion in the weekend. Most people after you skate ask how it went. That irks me soooo much. I was doing figures, and when you do hard turns like what i did it sucks if you can't do them. If you put your foot down you lose a whole point. My scores went down from 6.4 to 5.4 which put me into LAST place.
I still wonder why I even skate. I mean I'm not "bad" but its not like I'm good either. The most annoying thing was when my coach told me that if I didn't put my foot down then I would have gotten third. But no. Foot goes down, whole mark off. GRRRR. I got the turn aswell. Its just that the waiting and the dif floor and I lost my balance. My boyfriend says that because he was there was the reason I did that.
Im sorry but thats B.S!
“There are no failures - just experiences and your reactions to them.”
Well my reaction to this is bad. I'm trying sooo hard to make myself feel better seeing as it is only today. I spent the whole day listening to my i pod and fighting while in a shitty mood with my boyfriend. Bad enogh that when I was done I had to sit in a car for two hours with my boyfriend falling asleep on me. I thought girls we ment to be the ones that lay on the boys laps. Not the other way around

Trust me, I won't

This whole thing is kinda new to me but i feel there are things that particarly at this moment need to be said.
I don't really know how to say these things, or to start them for that matter.
I have trust issues and most people know that. The thing most people don't know (actually one person does) is why. This has, and still is effecting my life in such a big way that I don't want to keep it bottled up but fear I have to. If anyone ever goes through what i've been throgh I feel for them. No one should go through it even if you feel they deserve it.
You said to me the other day "you don't trust me enough and you never believe me" so i'm saying now what I couldn't tell you to your face. I trust you more than you think. You need to realise that its you lacking the trust not me. I don't go through your phone and I most deff don't go through your pencil case trying to find notes that have been passed in class. You need to trust me and realise this won't work if you read my stuff. I want it too, I really do but you need to get over yourself. No i'm not going to cheat on you and I am not going to leave you for my best friends boyfriend. Forget your past and focus on your future with me otherwise there won't be one.

Let me leave you with a qoute about trust.
“Trust is like a vase.. once it's broken, though you can fix it the vase will never be same again.”