Sometimes I just want to cry

It's so much easier to run than face all this pain here all alone

Why do you get all my shit? I feel so sorry for you, you deserve better than me, someone who doesn't get too hungry or tired and want to hit you. Someone who shows you that they love you each day and doesn't fight you off when you just want to show her that you care.
I complain about you all the time to my friends when I know I shouldn't. When they ask me to go somewhere after school or in the weekend I say that I have to ask you, and when I'm annoyed at you about something I say "the other day i got told off because (states reason)".
I asked you today to remember the last even semi-romantic thing I've done to show you how much I love you because I can't remember, the sad thing was, neither could you. I NEED TO TRY HARDER FOR YOU because if I don't I'll lose you.

I promise you that from this point forward I will be better to you and respect you more, and not over react, so pretty much I'll just change everything about me that doesn't make me seem like a bitch.
If not then "I don't know which is worse, being the one with the broken heart or being the one that breaks the hearts".

Happiness is always here, but covered by thoughts, desires and fears.

I'm excited, and I want to tell EVERYONE but I can't =(
It's so hard, I wish I could scream it to the world.

I'm so excited, and i just can't hide it.
I'm about to lose control,
And I think I like it.

Honestly, if everyone knew (i'd hope) that they're happy too and feel my joy.