I have finally decided what i'm doing next year.
I have decided where I'm heading in my life, but even then it's not exactly where I want to head.
Even now though I feel like having second thoughts for the nth time, but I have to do something with my life, so a "Diploma in business" it is.

The pain of having a broken heart is not so much as to kill you, yet not so little as to let you live

I've got to stop seeing you, I feel so bad that our unhealthy relationship has continued for this long,

and now it's time for me to say goodbye. 

We just can't keep meeting like this, me only seeing you when I need you and you doing your best to make me happy, it's not working anymore. 

I've lost faith in you before but this time is different, i'm going to go a year without you and hope that be being away from you will make me feel better. It will be hard for the few months but the heartbreak will fade and it will get better, I just have to keep reminding myself that it's not the end of the world and that it's for the better.

God I will miss you so much. 

So with this I say see you in a year, I hope I can make it that long.

"If somebody ever asks you to do something, do it really bad so you never have to do it again"

Things work out best for those who make the best of how things work out

I'm just really happy at the moment. Its like everything is going right for once. Aimee is growing well, Michael and I aren't fighting like we used to, and all our big problems have decreased (for now) and everything is just great.

I haven't actually been this happy in a long time. It's like finally everything fits into place. Like no matter what happens now nothing can ruin this day. It couldn't be more perfect

Eyes open-Taylor Swift

Everybody's waiting
Everybody's watching
Even when you're sleeping
Keep your ey-eyes open

The tricky thing
Is yesterday we were just children
Playing soldiers
Just pretending
Dreaming dreams with happy endings
In backyards, winning battles with our wooden swords
But now we've stepped into a cruel world
Where everybody stands and keeps score

Keep your eyes open

Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open

So here you are, two steps ahead and staying on guard
Every lesson forms a new scar
They never thought you'd make it this far
But turn around, oh they've surrounded you
It's a showdown, and nobody comes to save you now
But you've got something they don't
Yeah you've got something they don't
You've just gotta keep your eyes open

Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes open
Keep your ey-eyes

Keep your feet ready
Heartbeat steady
Keep your eyes open
Keep your aim locked
The night goes dark
Keep your eyes open

Everybody's waiting for you to breakdown
Everybody's watching to see the fallout
Even when you're sleeping, sleeping

Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open
Keep your eyes open